Friday, December 4, 2009

figments

he had been standing across the lot, staring at me for the past ten minutes. of course i was stuck beacuse momwoudn't let me move from beside her. she was oblivious to him andhis staring. and i didnt say anything about it either. he was good looking and frankly i was flattered that he was giving me so much attention. the playful smile almost twitching the corners of his beautiful lips. the sublte way he was looking at me through the bushes that seperated us. watching, pleased by the reaction the reaction he seemed to be gtting out of me.
but the irritating voice at the back of head was getting louder by the minute. conscience. is that what you call it? well, exactly,my conscience was literally screaming, "are you really that desperate?!" "are you actually falling fr some random guy on the street?!" and somehow that voice was now drowning at the back of my mind. as it became lower and lower, i handed the shopping bags to my mom, " i'm going to get some coffee, you want?"
"no, thanks honey. how about i meet you back at the bakery?"
"Yea, sure" it was like fate was making it happen. i slowly started walking toward the coffe shop, hands in my jacket pocket, trying not to be too obvious. from the corner of my eye i could see an angelic smile appear on his etherial face. it's what he wanted!but he didn't move.he just stood there and watched my every step. it should have made me uncomfortable but yet again i was flatterd at the attention he was giving me.
"one toffe nut latte, please" i checked my hair in the mirror above the counter. i was instantly disgusted. either i was blind or the guy needed glasses.
i took my hot cupand sat at one of the white tables belonging to the coffe shop. he was still watching me. ah well!mom could wait. another glance and he was gone!it was like he had disappeared in the blink of an eye.
''i'm guessing this belongs to you," his voice was soft yet so manly. there was something soothing yet loving about it. still, i got startled and grabbed the scarf that he was holding in his hand.
"oh...umm..yes.how'd you know?"i stammered and pocketed the little peice of cloth.probably must have fallen when i took out my wallet.
"umm..becuase it says Sydney and so does the locket around your neck," he winked at me. my heart stopped. could i have been anymore stupid?!
"oh..yea" i had to say something before i scared him away!"itsvery kind of you"
"my pleasure" he said smiling that etherial smile and pulled the chair infront of me, sittingso swiftly before i even realised what was happening. i guess he wasn't going anywhere.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

without a cake

so...day three of BECOMING 18 and so far nothing great. i dont know why but i was expecting something grand. evem if i am scared of becoming 18...i was hoping for somehing big? well any way. so im doing my bachelor of pharmacy and i have my exams now. did any one no that organic chemistry is the worst subject in the history of subjects?! really..i hate it so mauch and i still dont know why i took pharmacy seeing that it is all chemistry....wat was i thinking?...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

my first day

so today is my birthday and i have officially turned 18. wow. a legal adult. i dont know why but that makes me nervous. do i really want all those responsibilities? i live in the uae so u actually get ur driving lisence at 18. so thats the only plus point so far. why am i not like every one else? why am i not waiting for this amazing freedom?....i think i am just chickening out...do you?